About Zeitgeist

Is my blogger home page in finnish? who knoooows..

anyways I just finished watching zeitgeist on google video, I was amazed, emptied, surprised, impressed, convinced, doubtfull and then I just told myself that my freedom depends only on me and if anyone could be that evil there must be a positive counterpart.

Yes we are being conditioned for a pourpouse or another, but we are rather a poutpourri than droids.

We cannot split events this way even with all the factual thruts in the world, because life is not about factual events but as it says at the beginning of the movie, is about here and now.

We can be as fucked up as we want but the beautiful rave of beeing well be one, becoming all the time, even if we let our present be hell even if we don't aknowledge it and endlessly worry about waths around us, being doesen't stop.

Who you are deep within, who you bless with your presence and space reconnecting whit all there is means  thruly living, allowing the most radiant change of your sorroundings  catalized by itself through the infinite.

This movie might worry you, chose not to, thats sufference already, just be.

So long

I havent been writing on this blog.

My English is officially rusty, German syntax pretends to give order to my sentences, a unripened Spanish wanna get in the way, after spell check the evaluation is: Disastruous.

Well i'll keep on:

I'am now living in barcelona, yes europe most popular choice whit london i guess.

I was actually planning to go to india but I didn't get as close as checking for an airplane that i was already planning my offensive to this next portual town.

I am still so blessed that I can live close to the sea.

What am i doing here ?

Looking for a job, I am using the last money ( I lost track of my bank savings) to pay theater lessons which will start on monday.

 I am fucking around playing guitar each fourth day of the week.

In the whole I'm off to a semirelaxed job quest , involving the useless sending of hundreds of CVs and horrifing presentation letters (or even videos) in an Italianized Spanish of the worse sort.

I am having free catalan lessons two days a week for the sake of doing something ugly and train myself to sit on my ass like in the old days at school.

I am checking out tarot cards as often as my empty e-mail box.

The right job will come to me at the right time as Clemont said (he is a genius). 

It's like destiny's wispering in my ear, no try again be patient, not yet, do look still is useless.

Whit MY references I cannot believe is the recession's fault....... in the worse case i'm already fantasizing of going off for Santiago de compostela whit my last 50 euros, becoming a GO GO Dancer or male escort, playing my two chords on the street and climbing up old squats to find a place for the night.

Just relax take it easy, you still got money, a roof over your head food to eat.

The biggest risk is only having to live my attempt to learn spanish and evolve my artistical career and having to call the german guy to go in some holyday village for six months working as an entertainer.

Wow havent thought about it....that's great, i have fantastic options.....

really nothing to loose. 

Still I'd like not to have to do stupid holiday comedy and become a great actor here in spain orjust  attempting to and doing any job aside.

World, Universe, Friends, Family, German guy and everyone I don't know:

THANKS