The question is not whether the sea can fit into our heads, the question is whether we can become the sea.





This recalls me and explain a story that Glucksmann quotes at the end of one of his last articles, it's about early cristians (I'd appreciate if someone could recognise it and give me the source):

A monk goes to his master and asks: master, I dedicate myself to prayers and practice contemplation every day, but yet I feel as it is not enough, what else can I do to serve my God?
The master turns staring at him and lifts his open hands toward the sky, each finger is now burning like a torch , the Master asks:
What if we could all become fire?

After a couple of years of wondering around I´m starting to feel the pleasures of stability.

In wich way?

Well I´m making friends.

A city it´s a bit like a boat and a bit like a port.
A boat because you feel pleasurably stuck on it.

A port because people comes and goes, but keep coming back decently in time.

and then they are still your friends

Some time when I write something like this I ask myself wheter I´ve already read it somewhere.

Good
Praud
Fearfull
fire lit
little
God
me

Yesterday concentrating on the question -can we be free?- I lookeed for a speech from Jiddu krishnamurti that would deal with a similar question, I found it, and his words concentrated on a similar question:

can our mind be free of all time spanned conditionings?

for J. Krishnamurti wasn´t a question of getting rid of the entire mind, but cleansing it from ineffective parts, as called conditionings. By constant watching of our most automatic response we are able to deal whit this parts.

he was stimulating us to go into that question, using words as human condition and human conditioning.

How we evolved thousand of years of time spanned brain, and if we could at last be able to stick all this material out of our heads.

He called -to really think about it- not as conforming to another line of thoughts, but really to one selves sake.

The most recurrent question of JK is -what does it mean..........?-

he says to observe problems, as they were jewels.
To observe for some oriental philosophies it´s everything.

The world of forms has a depth that we can reach only trough observation, we shall listen to images, and understand them in each tiny perceivable particoular.

than, we can go beyond.

Looking back at what I write, I see that sometimes I distill vanity, like right now.
This thought is so like a trap, a redoundant wall, a white spot, a tower.
Shall I be sorry and create another circle, son of the first.
To which extent can I trust my mind ?
Shall I abandon her?
What do you think?
Some people says that Gods are little childs.
I say that my mind is a bitch.
Really, is there another way?
better
deeper
truer
than thinking?
Many people say yes.
many enlightened say yes.
Holy people say yes
Poor people say yes
Rich people say yes
And yet everybody acts the contrary.
Is Faith a synonim for madness
Or both eat the reason?
Is everybody fighting back?
M I ?
Are we all peraphs sharing the same point: nazis,soccer players, musicians,muslims, jewish, christians,Bhuddists,Postmans, and tour operator, seller, bureocracy, Terapist and sociologist.
I don´t believe that and yet is possible.
I repeat is this Mind a good tool?

Please answer......

Night fight




Lets go to sleep man,

aaaall right

you´ve got german lesson tomorrow, cannot keep oversleeping,
the "Two Marias" will hate you for this.

Right.... off I go.

Night...........you lazy buttoc

Gd´night.....let see you zomb trough those 4 hrs in the morning.

End of the week suggestion.

Have you ever looked up on wikipedia the word -time-?

Man, lately I´ve been reading lots on my computer, not just documents but also books.
It´s just wierd finding myself bended over my chair holding my huge monitor like the sides of a book.
I mean holding a book is mainly a practical reason, but than you discover that becomes bodylanguage, physical expression of the interest that written words can give.

How words feed soul.

A portable touchscreen notebook that´s what I´d like.

Today I´ve had breakfast at 4pm and than I was back to bed till 7.
I´ve fried some potatoes, and now I´ll frie a couple of eggs.
Done.
Altough I´m often concentrated on high speculations about lenguages, science, history, and philosophy a side of me is highly unrealistic.
Anytime that I get rained on while going to work I cannot help thinking that gods are punishing me or something. I also have a particular strong feeling of a concrete karma when I´m driving a bicicle or a car, a red lamplight it´s not only a stop sign, but always a warning that I´m beeing a mad driver, the same when I´m on life threatening moments on my bicycle (once a day) while I´m going to work It´s hard not to think about the hand of God in those moments.

This line came to me a night while quite high from a smoke, on my bicicle back from work beeing rained on and with blows of wind stopping me writing.

God is reading my mind, he just realizes a moment too late.

This is what I cal free will.

And that is how we were reasoning before atheism was invented and we were so close to nature.

Back to blog

Got back the PC, nice.
Last days wihtout PC I´ve been doing stuff.
We´ve got a Chef from Chile host of a girl that lives in my whonung.
Well, Cooks are Mad and Vain, but the guy goes farther than any I´ve known. and yes I like him he´s got the touch.
Still, I could insult him endlessly.
Anyway last day at work a girl that I know comes at the bar and we start talking.
She speaks perfect Italian with no signs of a German accent, she studies it since two years and have been in Italiy for five months, she doesn´t mess up a single R, impressive.
Well, I find out for the first time that she´s not only cute and half indonesian, but she does quite interesting stuff.
Well I was working whit this guy that just came back from Etiopia, and after half an hour talking I realized that he was her boyfriend!
At that point I switched slightly from the ""talkative attentive hidden vampire mode"
to the "talkative attentive destroy and be nice to the couple mode".

The emergency procedure followed :

Decrease gradually conversation with her till -22% on the original amount.
Increase conversation with him of +11% on the original amount
Allow the couple to get their brief intimacies
Be awfully nice to him
Don´t be too nice to her

send to her behind his back all the following subliminal messages:

I´m cooler than your boyfriend
I´m crazier than your boyfriend
I´m prettier than your boyfriend
I´m more sensitive and sexier than your boyfriend

Vorsicht!

If the stated procedure fails bound your emotions not to get involved.